sometimes i think
silence is the loudest thing there is
it forces you to hear
every movement
every breath
every thought
even the wind is quiet tonight
i can hear the gears
in my head
spinning
and it’s keeping me up
it’s all coming back now
every memory
every regret
every stupid goddamn mistake
i’ve ever made
the half-moons under my eyes
are getting as dark as the sky now
and i know that
my eyes will still be open
to watch the sun rise
but this time
my eyelids are heavier
the gears slow down
maybe i’m not so terrified of
the emptiness
anymore
maybe
i am learning to sleep in the silence
silence is the loudest thing there is
it forces you to hear
every movement
every breath
every thought
even the wind is quiet tonight
i can hear the gears
in my head
spinning
and it’s keeping me up
it’s all coming back now
every memory
every regret
every stupid goddamn mistake
i’ve ever made
the half-moons under my eyes
are getting as dark as the sky now
and i know that
my eyes will still be open
to watch the sun rise
but this time
my eyelids are heavier
the gears slow down
maybe i’m not so terrified of
the emptiness
anymore
maybe
i am learning to sleep in the silence